Monday, April 28, 2014

I'm still kicking

I haven't written in so long I'm not sure it I still "have it". It's been a trying time of late and my momma always said "if you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all". I guess I took her advice to heart. 

So what's been going on? Well, let's see...I guess the biggest thing has been the fact that my hubby decided to take a job in his hometown which happens to be over an hour from my house. This means that I only get to see him on the weekends. And let me tell ya, it kinda sucks. On one hand it's been a relief because when he was working for the law, he was a real bear to be around.

I mean, the man was impossible to live with. My manchild enjoys being in a bad mood but he was way worse than normal! Every...single...day the man walked in the front door after work in a BAD mood.No smile, barely a "hello" and you could see the hate pouring off of him in waves. I understand that being in law enforcement can make a person become jaded but it can also suck the life right out of people that have to be around someone like that. After 7 years he had finally had enough. I'm not sure if it was my threats of impending divorce or if he just finally had enough but praise be to the gods, he decided to find another career.

For about 2 weeks my man was pretty pleasant to be around. He was so dang relieved to be out of law enforcement he was giddy. It's taken about a month for him to de-stress and decompress but at this point I think he's going to make it. He got a job in a totally unrelated field which is good but he still finds things to be unhappy about. Since he already has a house in his home town and his new job is in his home town it only makes sense that he live there. It's good for his mileage but it isn't so good for maintaining his marriage. I feel like a single woman again. I only get to see him on the weekend and if something is going on here in the wicked city, I don't go down there. There have been weeks where I didn't see him for 2 weeks straight. He doesn't seem to mind which perplexes me. How could he NOT want to be around me 24/7??? I'm practically perfect in every single way!!!

I'm not sure what is going to happen. For the time being, I'm learning to be a single person again. If something breaks, I take care of getting it fixed - alone. If I want to go do something around town, I go alone. Or with girlfriends. I'm planning a little out of town trip with my kidlets but no hubby because what we're doing isn't his thing. You see? I'm virtually single! I've had lots of married people tell me that my situation sounds pretty ideal to them but they aren't in my shoes. They have live-in hubbies. They'd understand what they were missing pretty quickly if they were in my situation.

Well, I've gone and done it...Mama's advice about being quiet when there's nothing good to say just flew right out the window. Sorry about that. You see why I haven't written? Maybe I should go back into hibernation again!

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